i think i've been rather weird lately...with the sudden change in mood swings. like it was after the posting results..i was kinda happy that i got back to anderson but at the same time, i was kinda sad that i didnt make it to national. zzzzz what's with me man. then on wed when i made the appeal, i suddenly regreted my actions...like what if i got into nj? it'll be totally unfamiliar. no more hi here hi there. i will probably only noe like less than 30 percent of the pple who re frm st nicks?? ok. then luckily my appeal wasnt successful cuz until now..i still havent received any news from 'em. so on thurs night...i suddenly felt kinda sad again..cuz i didnt make it into nj. like my parents want me there and i..kinda wanna get in too?? sighs...but its probably cuz of the 1st 1.5 months in aj that made me think twice.

anyway, orientation two was MUCH MUCH better than tha the 1st one. though there wasnt campfire...cuz of the rain? like why does it always have to rain in the night on the last day of orientation?? but whatever it was i could tell that more than 80 percent of the j1s enjoyed themselves. like everyone was sooooo high...screaming and everything. haha. F&B or what they called the friday night band rocked man:D at the end of the entire orietantion, my head was like spinning. haha. probably dizzy from the madness. xD

after orientation, khafra went for og dinner:] oh yea. wanted to eat at amk food junction but apparently, it was so crowded. so we turned to sumo. i've never been there be4 haha. yea. so the food was alright...not fantastic and it was cheap for compared to others like sakae, of course.

i was so high

i did not recognize

the fire burning in my eyes

the chaos that controlled my mind

hmmm..so temp. lecture stars next week.. sutanto was telling me yesterday that the real thing starts on mon. as in jae. i guess no one took pae seriously, except for some...the real thing man...i guess i better stop procrastinating..

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